Been a long time since I've updated. What's changed?
- I've moved house, I live on my own now. It's...ok.
- There's been some shake up of relationships. Some people taking a step away (mostly family), some taking a step forward. I am starting to get a sense of who my real friends for life are, whom I should be investing in the most. Most notably, Anne-Marie. A distant relation, but also, maybe my closest relation.
- I've been going to a support group. Currently twice a week. I'm having counselling there, and they do workshops to increase self esteem and things like that. The name of the support group is Number 11.
- It's because of them and the aforementioned self esteem workshop that the perhaps biggest change occurred. I've changed my name! I now go by my middle name as my main name. Elizabeth. That was a year ago this weekend. It's not why I did it, but it has definitely separated the people who respect me from those who don't. But maybe more of that on another day.
- Also, in part because of Number 11, I've uncovered the big dream for my life. I want to be a foster carer! I don't know how I'm going to get there, because I currently live in a very small flat that does not have a child's bedroom, but that is where I want to go.
- I've moved churches. Still getting settled in. I've always been a pentecostal at heart, although I went to the baptist church for a long time. And now I'm at a church that is a bit more pentecostal, I think.
- I've been on a date! It was the first one in a long, long time. And that one didn't work out, but I am looking forward to finding someone else who I can maybe be in love with again.
- Did I have a niece last time you heard from me? Well she's 3 now, had her birthday party recently. She was just starting to love me and then there was a pandemic and I didn't see her for over 6 months and then I moved house so even when she was back to going to my Mum's every Thursday, I wasn't there, and now she doesn't really love me anymore. Unfortunately. But I still love her. 💕
That's it, I think, for the time being.
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